1) I am not drunk or even buzzed right now as I am sticking to my limits
2) Being raw right now which lines up with my blogs

2&1/2 years ago I cracked my head open on this toilet. I don’t know if I got in a fight with a girl whose date I had recently slept with or if I was trying to purge and blacked out. Most likely I was binging and purging which I still do on occasion.  Well, not in 2 years actually.
Anyway, that happened because I was trying not to cry. I am terribly ashamed by it and have been keeping it a secret for awhile. I am rubbing my face in it tonight and I don’t know why. I guess because I would rather run myself through these embarrassing memories than cry.